I am often reminded of the calling of God and that where He leads He will also provide. Hard sometimes to think about when in the midst of struggles. I often want to take control of things when God is really calling me to trust and obey...not to be in control of everything...He's already in control. He's infinitely wiser and more than able to supply our every need. I am learning daily what it looks like to let go and let God be God. Truth is, I can't do everything...nor has He asked me to. God does not set us up to fail, but to succeed...but...His way! His way is the way of surrender and self-sacrifice; of dying to myself daily so that He may live His life through me. His way means that it's not about me, but always about Him and His will. It's about living as He lived, loving as He loved and serving as He served, thereby making Him known to others.
This is, without a doubt, the hardest thing I've ever done. Planting a church in a needy, inner-city community has stretched me more than anything I've ever done. I never expected this to be an easy road, and the idea of it costing me everything I have; physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually, etc, has become more of a reality. Jesus told His disciples that following Him would be costly, but the reward would be far greater. So I press on daily, knowing that the work I do for His kingdom is never in vain. Progress is sometimes hard to measure, yet the fruit of my labors are known by Him who sees all things.
I pray that I might die to myself daily, so that He can guide this vessel
